I have to get out of my comfort zone. I believe when they gave me this responsibility. It meant they believe in me. They trust me! They know I can handle this. So, why do I not believe in me my self?
I just feel this is so hard, I never deal with this kind of thing. When I got this responsibility, I suddenly think something big will happen to me. Yes, something that will change me.
I always feel OK if someone orders me, I am happy if I work alone and manage myself. Even, I often feel bad if I must order someone to do something. But, now I must change! I must manage the other team and delegate the job to the others.
It is new for me. It's not me. But I have to be that one. I need to be the new me. I have to fight myself off. Fight off my fears. Allah, please help me.
By the way, today is the first Ramadhan. Hope I can use my Ramadhan time as maximal as I can. (I write this journal on April, 3rd 2022)
